Intuition- Letting Your Intuitive Self Heal Childhood Traumas

Can The Past Really Take A Hold On Your Present...and Keep You From Succeeding and Being Happy?  You Bet!

This morning I was struggling with getting going

I went to a party...out until about 2.  Nothing heavy.

So part of it was being tired.

But a bigger part was the internal tensions I have felt for awhile.

It's like a stomach ache that won't go away.  And it it only comes in when I'm planning out my day or week.  Like my body doesn't want to face the future. And Inertia wants to set it.  "Don't do anything John.  You'll feel better by avoiding"

I knew that whatever was bothering me was fairly deep. 

How? Because I did my normal "mind clearing" exercises and the tightness was still there.

Keep in mind, that when you learn to control your thoughts, there are two different results.

The first is you can change your thoughts for that "moment".  That will relieve much of the pressure or conflict going on in your mind right now.

It's what I call a Thinking First Aid.  It fixes the immediate problem...and often that works very well.

Examples of Thinking First Aid include the different types of Thinking Pattern Interrupts I talked about before.  Or learning to "Live In The Now"  (Really it should be called Thinking in the Now)

The other type of thinking changes go much deeper...it's more of changing beliefs. 

Sounds confusing.

The Difference Between Changing Your Short Term Thoughts and Your Long Term Beliefs

Here's where I see the differences.

Most of your day to day thoughts are insignificant...malleable...fleeting. 

If you think "I want to have a giant, juicy hamburger for lunch" and you don't get it...it's not a big deal.

Those are really just "noise" in the head.  Your mind trying to fill the quiet.  That's what it does. And you have plenty of help from outside advertisements, conversations, memories...you name it. 

Some philosophers would also say much of that "noise" is really shared knowledge...like wer'e "All One" and Linked Together.

So if we can't create enough noise on our own.  We'll find it from others.

By the way, that's not as weird as it may sound.

If you are around people, you're bound to pick up on their moods...swinging temperaments...and stuff like that.

And if you are not in control of your responses...both thinking and feeling...those moods will enter your mind as judgments and decisions about the people you talking with.

The Second Level Of Learning is changing beliefs.

And here's where Inertia or Conflicting Thoughts can be helpful.

If you have some deep conflicts...so deep they are stopping you from doing something you want to do...or are at least telling yourself you want to do....then it gives you a chance to root down deeper and find out what your beliefs are.

Here' an example..

I wasn't moving forward on my plans for the day.  And it was tough.  It was a literal struggle.  I could make breakfast...but I couldn't drive down to the office to do my posts. clicking and homework for the class.

And here's the thing.

I really wanted to do it.

These are things that make a difference in my life...in my future...and the direction I want to go.

Going to the office and writing and studying is something I enjoy...and not life threatening.  It's not like I'm going out to hunt Tigers or anything.

I finally sat down on my couch and put my mind into Neutral.  Like a quick mediation state. 

The funny thing is...the more something is bothering you...the less it wants to be found.

Put another way...if something is dug in deeply in my subconscious...and it doesn't want to be changed...the more easily you get distracted.
(Warning...Warning...Danger Will Robinson...Meteors of the Mind coming in!)

So I wanted to get up and change the thermostat.  I wanted to go put the clothes in the dryer.  I wanted to crawl back into bed.

But I didn't.  I stayed put.  Physically I kept sitting on the couch.  Mentally, when distractions came up I would breathe them away.  Or if they were to big, I would write out what they were on a pad I  keep on my coffee table...and that would take away their "power".

I Finally Gave In

I wasn't going anywhere.  My Brain/Movement went into gridlock.

And this is what happened.

You see, my mind wasn't just telling me "Not" to do something.

It was freezing up my abilities to act.

I asked myself..."I can't act...why not?"

As I went deeper into Meditation a memory came up for me that hadn't crossed my mind more than a couple of times in my life.

It happened about 1961.  I was seven years old...sitting in a new red convertible T-Bird that my dad had left me in while he went into some store.  It was on a hill.  I was playing around...pulled the gear shift out of park...and the car rolled backwards and hit another car.

Taught about a Sh*tstorm.  (That's related to Lifestorms......Enough S-Storms create the Lifestorms)

For those of you don't know...the Thunder Bird was Ford's answer to the Corvette. It was a sporty car...and it wasn't cheap.  And my Dad didn't own it.  He was a Ford salesman and was just borrowing it.  So I was damaging a car he had borrowed...an expensive car...a rare car...and he was a drunk...so it all came down on me.

And it wasn't just rage...it was "Don't you f'ing move.  Don't you touch a thing.  Don't you ever do anything by yourself again".  Rage.  Violent Anger.  Threats by an adult at a slightly built 7 year old kid.  I was paralyzed.

See any similarities?

The Deeper The Hole, The Harder To Change...And The Bigger The Reward

And it went a lot deeper.

I stayed in reliving that state over and over for about two hours.

The words came to me.  The feelings were harsher.

I saw that at that moment, I learned it's better to do nothing...to freeze up...than rock the boat...fight back...you name it. 

And it ran so deep...it would show up in places you wouldn't expect it too...but it did all my life.

The  common trigger seemed to be 1) Confusion and 2) Not being able to escape or come up with an answer.

So slowly the power of the memory diminished.

It doesn't do it by itself.

There are a handful of techniques.  Nothing fancy.

But....Warning : Having to many "techniques" to change something that actually hurt you.

"I'll take a little bit from Psychology Today...a little bit from what I learned at church...Hey, that article I read last week said to do this...that seminar I went to last year said to handle things this way"...that's what leads to the famous Analysis Paralysis.

So what I did was to let it keep washing over me. 

The words would change.  The voices louder.   It got worse before it got better.

And it got less intense.

That's the way you know whatever is going on is working.

I would go back and ask myself the same question..."Why can't I act"  and it wasn't as desperate...or harsh...or loud.

Just reliving it lessens the impact.

One way I find useful is to put myself in the position of the child...but put my adults conscious in place.  So I can talk to myself about the situation as an adult. Then I have a choice.  I'm not a powerless kid being destroyed by his father...but an adult who can fight back and reason back.  And that literally changes the memory...or at least the response to it. 

I'm no longer it's prisoner.

Time for a change

So What Does This Have To Do With Intuition???

The Intuition is just another way of thinking...it's your subconsious mind sifting and sorting through everything.

In this case...I had to trust my Intuition to give me an answer.  And I had to trust that it would give me the right answer...and at the right time.

What I mean is this belief has interfered with my whole life.  And for some reason I've never faced it.

The difference this time was I've been willing to face things like this.  And have actively been pursuing that.

The second difference is I had the courage to say what was really going on.  I "asked" Why Can't I Act.

It wasn't general...it was specific.

Did it work?

I'm writing this, aren't I?

Will it stick?

Yes.  It's not gone completely, but it's not nearly as strong.  Before I had no choice...it forced itself on me.  Now when I bring up the memory...it's very light feeling...and not dragging me around.

Thanks,

  Intuitive John

Learn To Trust Your Intution!

PS  Knowing you guys, you probably have some ways you handle this stuff already.  If you don't...let me know and I'll cover some sometime.  It can be very handy.  You can literally change your responses to old memories...and wipe out the negative effect that they have when controlling you.